Stumbled on this guy's lj (okay, actually i didn't STUMBLE on it, i went to find it cause of a comment from one of my friends) and i have no words to describe what i have come to realise as the grotesque inner realms of the brains of a typical 15 year old adolescent male.

Seriously, i can never look at him again. EVER.

He's like the epitome of gay/weirdness/testosterone driven dickhead.

I AM SOOOOOO GLADDDDD that guys around me aren't like that, actually if they were, then they won't be guys around me already. BUT STILL.

ew.

/ okay back to gossip girl and math whooopieee. -.-

ohmannzzzz i'm running a fever and my nose is dripping mucusssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

)))): Hope i get better by monday if not wo zhen de hui dui bu qi yiyi! ):

SIghhhh. Oh i just realised i haven't eaten yet since lunch this afternoon. BUT THENNNNN i abit lazy now haha. I shall just drink dou nai and make do.

Say byebye to the mucus monster who's gonna continue doing math with half her brain left. (the non-usable half)

I HATE INTEGRATIONNNNN }:O

ROAR.

After days of experimenting, i have concluded that everything i touch/go near will char. Yes, i'm like the modern midas with a twist of fate.

As my sissy said 'its okay, your husband won't not like your cooking, cause the food looks like you.'

RAWR.

I need to employ a cook too.

I. HAVE. A. SLEEPING. PROBLEM.

RAHHHH. I can't get to sleep at night till i toss and turn like thousands of times. (yeah exaggerating, still.) Its so exhausting to wake up in the morning for band. I looked like a freaking lao ah ma today luh.

But the thing is, i'll be able to sleep in the afternoon cause i'm so exhausted.

I'm turning nocturnal.

I am an owl.

hoot hoot.

just made myself some disgusting lunch its like chao tar but i can't complain cause I MADE IT. Yes yes, i can't cook. shit man, i am not a woman HAHAHA. (walao don't laugh at me you, I BET YOU CAN'T COOK TOO)

Remember the last time i posted i was loading PS: I Love You?? WALAO THE BLOODY THING SCREWED UP ON ME. So yea i'm still a loser who hasn't watched it yet.

Omg i just ate a charred piece of don't know what shit, EWWWW.

Anyways, went to chai's after band yesterday. Was supposed to do math, but then we got distracted by spongebob and homersimpsons so we didn't do anything in the end. ALL LUTHER'S FAULT, haha i bet if he came along we confirm plus chop will do work. HAHA just to make him suffer heh.

( Ultimate disaster. )

Rahhh, i'm so useless sometimes.

I don't know why i felt the sudden need for some sappy loveeeeeeeeeeeee. HAHA. And i thought of PS:I Love you. Wanted to watch that for damn bloody long but didn't have the time (or maybe i just didn't make an effort) SO I'M LOADING IT NOWWW!! Whoopie exciting.

(yes this is totally random, decided that i should update my lj with random nothings than a place which reeks of sadness/emoness/misery.)

There's band tmr, 9am. IWILLWAKEUPIWILLWAKEUPIWILLWAKEUP. To show how sincere/guilty i am about falling sick and missing band, i shall set my alarm at erm 7! and leave my house at 745 so i'll reach there super duper early and happy HAHA. Wait means i have to sleep like at 11. Okay set eleven it shall beeeee (whoooo notice the pun?? HAHA. i am good) I need to start going out more, cause staying at home just makes me lose track of time. I thought today was monday THRICE. And i thought i missed band again)): Yup, totally need to employ a timechecker. LULUUUUU you can be my timecheckerrr, haha since your As are ending soooonnnnn. HAHA jokinggg, but remember we have a date! <3

OHOH, i cut my nails today and i hurt my middle fingerrrr, so now its like in pain and useless cause when i type whatever that's supposed to appear cause it pressed the keys DOESN'T. Sadsadsadsad ow. Typing sad hurts. HAHA. I should cut my toenails tooooo. So long and ugly rawr.

Okay enough about personal management shitzzz. I bet i'm boring y'all into puddles of gooooo.

( cocoa to chocolate hearts. )

lovelove.

(oh and i finished math till differentiation halfway. YAYYAYHAPPYDAY)

WHY DOES MY LAYOUT LOOKS SO SCREWED IN FIREFOX. I'm assuming its cause i've been posting friends only.

SO HERE GOES A PUBLIC POST JUST TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED. haha.

oh, AND JIAYOU FOR PROMOS EVERYONE <3333333333333!

/edit

STILL SCREWED LEI. i must log in and see my journal then it'll be aligned properly. THIS IS SO WEIRD.

ANYONE KNOWS WHY?):

HEY PEOPLE I'M ALIVEEEEEEE.

Just been posting friends only. haha. So add me if y'all want. :D



HEARTSHEARTS.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO i've moved and i'm fine with this place i guess. although :

1. i hate having to bring an umbrella to school just because the LONG WAY to the bus stop isn't sheltered.
2. i hate having to WALK to the bloody bus stop in the first place cause everything's so dark and eerie
3. i basically hate having to move alot luh.
4. Its near a freaking school so in the morning i can hear the retarded bell ring like every half an hour
5. I don't see the normal people i usually see around and i feel damn foreign

But on the other hand:

1. NO CATS!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
2. its really quite pretty (shall post pictures next time when i find my cable)
3. I <3 my room! Its alot biggerrrrrrrrrrrrr. :D
4. There's a nice park downstairs (although i don't know how and why i'll ever use it to do anything)
5. I can walk to BPP (i think, haven't really tried yet haha)

yessssssssssssssssssssssssss. Anyway, fyi, for people that don't know i moved to bukit panjang haha.

NYCB CONCERT'S ON MY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. haha. Don't know if its a good/bad thing yet, i shall just see haha! OH OH, i have to sell 8 tickets for HC concert (6 stalls-$10 and 2 circle-$12) on the 30th May, at VCH, 730 i think. SO PLEASE JUNIORS COME BUY FROM ME. Cause i think its quite dumb if i like ask friends to come support ME when i'm like just this insignificant person that's playing in the whole group of people. Yes, so at least if you juniors go y'all can LISTEN and erm, GAIN EXPERIENCE. haha.

Or i can just bug y'all and give y'all hell. :D

ooooooooooooooooooh my dinner's hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. byebye.

Omg my mouse is so screwed, i have to click don't know how many freaking times then it'll respond. DIE YOU USELESS THING. oh wait, no wrong, if it dies on me then i'll have no mouse to speak of, okay it shall not die.

Wth, i think i'm going bonkers.

Physics test is next mondayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. omgomgomgomgdiediediediedie. Was supposed to wake up and do phy today after the little nap i took once i got home from school. But ohwell, the physics goddess isn't looking after me much nowadays so i have totally no interest in doing any phy shit. Rahh. Gotta go get the stuff for Fac CIP after school tmr somemore. Seriously, i don't know how i'm going to get MOPS. WTFLA. Okay this is getting me pissed, i shall change the topic.

Was abit out of sorts in school today, i so need to ADAPT TO SCHOOL LIFE AGAIN. haha, this reminds me of angelia and how she went 'shit, why am i here", "i so do not want to be here", "SHIT I HATE SCHOOL" like every 5 seconds in the 20 minutes we spent drinking milo. Okay, only I WAS drinking milo, she was lamenting about school and eating mentos. HAHA. School sucks the sanity outta you. ): They gave out the GP booklet thingy today too, was sorta a wake up call for me, i don't know why. haha, I'M GROWING OLD )))))))))))):

Swimming tomorrow, pray i don't drown.



I turn to you.

Its raining again. My poor daddy had to go out and get dinner in the rain cause he said "cannot order! wait no soup also got soup" Wth, so lame la please. I'm surrounded by lame people everyday i don't know how i manage to stay sane. HAHA.

Yay fever's gone, felt much better so got down to doing some homework. Did math/chem didn't touch econs at all cause DUH i know nuts about it. I'm still waiting for people to come online and explain all the shit to me. Rahh, i think i'm quite hopeless. ):

WHY CAN'T EVERYONE BE HAPPY.

Okay fine that was quite random. But sighhh, everyone's been emoing i hate it. There's always a brighter side to things, you just have to look for it! Yes, it may take time, but at least you'll know that there's that rainbow after the storm (: I should know right. If anyone needs someone to talk to I'M HERE OKAY.

 WO AI DA JIA, da jia kai xin, wo jiu kai xin. :D

Maybe its the weather. I hope it doesn't rain on monday. School + rain = DEPRESSING.

ahhh i shall try to figure out econs by myself, maybe my dormant smart brain cells will come back to life.

/edit.

WHAT THE SHIT I GIVE UP LUH. i hate hate hate hate econs. I SHALL JUST SLEEP. RAHHHH.

Today was supposed to be chem day. HAHA, but i ended up waking up at 330, went out to get a hair cut (which seriously didn't make any difference) and shopped around till i just reach home like NOW.

Shit mannnn, i don't think i'll ever get anything done this holidays. Evelyn woke up at 1030 to mug chem and what was i doing?? Still in the midst of my weird dreams probably drooling too. Wtf. Haha i even painted my nails HOT RED just to pretend i got something to do so i don't have to start mugging. My feet are seriously damn ugly now i don't feel like looking at them, but walao i too lazy to remove already.

OH MY DADDY'S BACK WITH MY DINNERRRRRRRRRRRRRR. :D:D

Another reason for me to NOT start studying just as yet.

SHIT SABRINA STOP IT.

Studious Sabrina shall start studying.

woots.

"I know we get used to it. But we shouldn’t.

We get used to living in back door apartments and not having another view but the windows around. And because there is no view, sooner or later we get used to not looking outside. And because we don’t look outside, sooner or later we get used to not opening the curtains. And because we don’t open the curtains sooner or later we get used to turning on the light earlier. And by getting used to, we forget the sun, forget the air, and forget the magnitude.

We get used to waking up in the morning exasperated because it’s time. To rush into breakfast because we are late. To read newspapers while on the bus because we can’t spare any time. To eat a sandwich because we can’t stop for lunch. To go home because it’s already night. To fall asleep in the bus because we are tired. To go to bed early and sleep heavily without having lived the day.

We get used to waiting the whole day only to hear over the phone: today i can’t make it.

We get used to it, so that we don’t get scratched by harshness, to preserve ourselves. We get used to it to avoid wounds, bleedings, to spare the heart.

We get used to it to spear life. Then little by little we wear out and wear out so much getting used to it, that we lose ourselves."


It makes a whole lot of sense doesn't it.

(ssanks chai)

It sucks being sick. I have been doing nothing but lying on my bed with this stupid train of thoughts running painfully through my head i had to read just to get it all out.

Everyone's having fun in school while i'm here doing what shit?

ahhhhh shucks.


)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):


some things, i'd rather not know, if not knowing would make me feel better.

B-R-E-A-T-H-E.


its not worth it.

rahhh, why must this happen ): Just when everything was getting back to being familiar, familiarities disappear. )):

I feel damn bad cause i know she's using smilies and everything to make it seem alright. double rahh.

i don't wanna go school tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

i'm in a super duper pmsy mood now i just screamed my head off at my smaller sister over nothing. omgggggggggggg. i am a bitch. Ahh whatever, she does the same to me too when she pmses. AND BOY SHE'S DEFINITELY WORSE.

Because of my pmsy mood i'm hating people who aren't supposed to be emoing but emoing over nothing. its seriously damn irritating. I HAVE SOMETHING TO EMO ABOUT OKAY, YOU DON'T. SO GET OFF MY BACKKKKKKKKKKK.

(please please let her get in)

I'm seriously lagging in the homework department and being totally sleep deprived i can't think either. SHIT LA I NEED MOTIVATION. ))):

There's band tomorrow so i can't mug for chem, but i want band cause i haven't had band for so long shit this is damn confusing i want to sleep already i'll just do my homework tomorrow.

WHAT.THE.FUCK.

i don't like seeing you alone.


Maybe that's why.

Firefox saves like every single title i use so everytime i type in a title everything else will appear in a drop down menu. Which sucks, cause i desperately want to forget. Maybe there's some way i can delete those stuff, shall play around later.

Went for dinner with beng/hongkee/kw and angelia last night. Hongkee and beng were being their usual irritating selves, bitching in code so we won't understand. Selfish idiots, i wanna know gossip too! ): Next time i know gossip i shan't share with them HAHA. PT and yier joined us later when we were at island cremery. By then i was already half dead seeing how i only had less that 8 hours of sleep in two days. Totally plopped down on my bed after i reached home and bathed till IRRITATING YIER called me in the morning at arnd 11+ and woke me up. WALAO EH SO EARLY CAN. i was planning to sleep till like 3 AT LEAST. Called to ask me watch movie with him and beng. Which i couldn't cause i was going to make new specs. YAY, i'm going to have nice white specs. Although the choosing process was like WTF. Cause my degree's like super high, so alot of frames i cannot use. Must be small/nohalf-frames that kind.

Going to primary school teacher's house to bai nian tomorrow. Yay i am excited to see my friendssssssssssssss. Haven't seen them since december.

i need to find the need to do homework. ):


sometimes when i look into your eyes, it still hurts.
please make it go away.